Date:	2006-05-10 20:29
Subject:	Feeling better :)
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	u hciudsayer nothing

Update! Greg and I had one of those talk things XD

Yep. Things are better now. Happiness. :D

Trish: Sorry if I sounded snappish on my reply :P It was one of those... '*tears out hair* EVERYONES WRONG AND I HATE THEM!!!!' nights. ^^;; But you were right o'course. :D

Manda: .... rolled up newspaper. *snort. laugh* I can see Kevin cowering in TEH TERROR. If only we recieved a newpaper! D:! hehe.

So... I don't hate everyone any more!! <3 I love you all again! ^^

And thanks to Jubbie for listening to my random bitch rant. :D




in other news... I GOT A RAISE!!! Even though I am not supposed to tell anyone how much I make (COUGH8.00COUGH) cause Cindy is all like, "Don't discuss your wages with anyone becuase thats private. If you do, you'll ahve to ome speak to ME and we may not discuss wages anymore!" o.O Ooookay. I was like... thats stupid. Cause the only reason they tell us that is cause they don't want the empolyees killing the managers cause we actually got our raises and the employees get shit on when half the employees do more than the managers... *rolls eyes* I hear they are all coming up for evaluation though.......





okay. I stopped writign at 'Evaluation' cause I couldn't remember the word. Then i went to Coldstone with T... and now I have returned and have totally lost interest in this post YAY.


I go now. :D

~S

I've rewritten this post a few times. It started out as a really long letter to Greg telling him all the things I want to kill him over. I saved it onto my computer cause I couldn't bring myself to post it.

heh. I'll just leave it at this: I love my boyfriend, but God I just wish he could SEE things once in a while instead of being such a FUCKING PRICK.... even if he just doesn't notice...










I'm hungry and going to McDonalds. Fuck everyone.

~S

Date:	2006-03-27 01:48
Subject:	O.o!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy
Music:	fjshd blah

Baaaah I dunno.

The Fallen Angel You scored 50% Pride, 65% Envy, 60% Ambition, and 47% Deceitfulness!

You are the Fallen Angel, one of the angels who left their first estate and now reserved in chains in everlasting darkness. Basically, you left heaven to get some tail. That’s right, you thought some women were so beautiful, that you left heaven to have sex with them. Well some certainly are beautiful, but you gotta draw the line somewhere, geez! Based on your personality, it seems you may have left heaven for two reasons, besides the endless supply of human females. Reason 1: You are ambitious and you got tired of being a servant of God. Instead, you wanted to make your own kingdoms so others could serve you. Reason 2: You are a jealous person, and may have taken a certain joy out of corrupting God’s creation. You are a straightforward villain, and you didn’t try to deceive God in your evildoings. Basically, you told God, "it is what it is". In the end, God decided that you had to go, and you humbly accepted the punishment mentioned at the beginning of this description.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 42% on Pride You scored higher than 75% on Envy You scored higher than 50% on Ambition You scored higher than 38% on Deceitfulness

Link: The Which Biblical Villain Are You Test written by MetalliScats on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

It was funny and I laughed.

Not much to yap about. I hate managing at McDonald's. It makes me want to tear out my hair. :D

I love Gregory but god he can be a cranky Beotch. DAMMIT YOU SLEPT FOR THREE HOURS LONGER THAN ME, I CLOSED AND YOU STILL HAD THE NERVE TO BE AGGRIVATED WHEN AT 9AM I WOULDN'T GET OUT OF BED?!?!?!?!!?! (breathes) I am better now. ^^; I had a.. stressful-ish day. But, I guess its gunna be that way till my scedule get fixed or I get a new job. And I;ma gunna punch my boyfriend if he comments on it again. :D

Bah. I have been unhealthy for the past like... week. o.O I just haven't felt like myself. Period starts soon too. Even MORE joy. x.x; I just feel stressed out and sick and lazy. I go to work, look at everyone and just wanna baricade myself in the office and ignore EVERYONE. I just want my entire crew to just implode and die. I can't hardly stand looking at anyone anymore. I hate being challenged because I'm everyones fucking FRIEND!! Bah. Oh well. I think I am gunn alook for a new job. I can be picky for now though, cause even though I hate McD's... its paying pretty good for the moment. I'm thinking of trying for a job at a bank, the courthouse or for the county.

I just hate everyone right now. I want them all to just... POOF o.o; everyone. EVERYONE YOU HEAR!!! mmmm... I dunno. I'm just in a bad mood right now. Prom was this weekend for all the kids. Hope everyone had great fun getting drunk and touching eachother in clearwater. o.< I don't sound to angry do I? :D? I dunno. From what I heard from all the high schoolers going... everyone was just going to like, get drunk or party or whatever. *sigh* its just not my scene... and everyone talkign about getting drunk, or tispsy or buzzed like its cool just bugs me, cause I don't think its cool o.O;

AAAAAAUUUUUGGGGHHHHHHHHH *rips out remainign hair!!!* I just. Hate everyone. *sighs* Yep. I just... need to take a week off or something and just die in my room for a littlw while. Take about two days and shut off my cell phone and ignore the world... take a day or two and devote them to Gregory and getting up early and actually doing something fun (like going to disney or soemthing...) and then take a few days and maybe go see Virginia, and go see Mrs. Vicky and Aunt Priscy and hang out with Tonya and Marie... and Trisha and Jub and Manda and Brian... and... other people who deserve attention. Then do something nice with Mom. x.x

All I need is a week, God! A WEEK!! CAN'T YOU JUST SHUT DOEN MCDONALD'S FOR A WEEK?!?!?!!

... I think I'll request a week off in a few weeks. See if Cheryl has mental breakdown, as I foresee she might. *gutteral laughter* DIE BITCH DIE.


.... wow. What started as a post just for that meme thingy... turned into a real rant of christ-ola-proportions o.o;; Oh well.

~S

Date:	2006-02-16 03:27
Subject:	I DID IT?!
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	Weird Al. XDXDXD

Augh. Today kids, I starte dmanagement at McDonalds. Why? ... CAUSE I NEED THE FUCKIN' MONEY THATS WHY!!! .... oh yeah, and so I can have my own keys and code and can send kevin's dumb ass home.

Today wasn't bad actually... o.o Lincoln taught me how to close everything (computer wise. I can close evetyhign else. XP har.) And since today was end of the pay period... i learned how to do that too. I am pretty confident in myself now. o.O; I did the deposit and everything. Brandy taught me how to count down drawers the other night... so happiness. o_o; I CAN MANAGE, YAY! o.<

Tomorrow I get my keys and code. And I better start getting manager pay too. o.o; My nametag ought to be here in a week or so I heard. I have nice manager clothes and evil manager pants that I have to roll down. XD yarg.

Bought new work shoes. They are ugly as fuck. They now have happy bunny laces in them. YAY.

LIFE IS BORNING! I got a new bed- Queen sized and TALL. Greg is excited cause its softer than my old bed... of which (HE says) was like sleeping on a rock. I liked my bed. ;.; Oh well, he'll have to share it with me, so I suppose its good he'll like this one. :D I'm glad its much bigger. Now he can sleep on his own fucking side. XDXDXD hehehe.

SOOON! Renn Faire!!!! O_______O!!! I get paid here right quick so... exciting!! :D! haaaaa. I am gunna have money to buy me a dresssss, yaaaaay! ^___________________^ I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT!!! Its gunna be cool. I can't wait to see whta Greg decides to buy. He's gunna buy stuff to dress up too. :D haha. Its gunna be COOL!!

GREG AND SYNDAL = ONE YEAR on Feb. 22nd!! :D!! Cna you fucking believe it? o____o Jesus Christ.

I dunno. I found my camera and charger. When I feel up to pic taking... I'll take some *grins at Trish!* ^^ hehe.

Hm... I am going awaaaay now. I have classes tomorrow. (VOMIT) I hate school so bad o.O; I have rethought my college plans, and have decided that now isn't the time to do college. I am going to finish this semester and drop it for a while.

When you are sitting in class, tearing your hair out because the teacher is retarded or because you feel like you should be at work (even though you despise it) ... its time to go. ^^;; I may do some online classes or something. *shrugs* but no more regular classes for a while, anyways.

YEAH with that I leave yoooou. See yeh. :D

~S

Date:	2006-01-20 01:17
Subject:	jhuvhoia I suck. >
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	shitty TV

today... kinda sucked.

I woke up late and missed psychology class. Oh well. Gregory came over and we hung out for a few hours.

... Then, I'm trying to get to my English class... can't find my bookbag. Find the crap I need for class at least, go to the car and try to leave. Well, Chewbacca (our little dog) is barking. I thought he was behind me, chasing me. So, I speed up to get away from him.

.. clunk clunk clunk. Stick maybe? Keep driving. Over the top of the hill... no more dog barking. Wtf? Back up. Dog in middle of road. Slam car in park, junp out of car, run down road.

Mom had already gotten to the dog, and so had dad. Mom's already freaking out, and told me to go back. But no, I don't. Is he okay Is he okay? Dad says no, he's dead. ><

The dog ran out the second driveway barking at me. I didn't see him of course, cause he's tiny and darted out. Ran under my tired (tire missed him) and under the car. But, we live on a dirt road, so her basically got inbetween the car bottom and the burm of the road.

He was gone instantly though... Mom keeps telling me it wasn't my fault, and dad said that it was bound to happen, he himself almost got the dog this morning. Dad said he knew it was gunna happen, someone was gunna end up hitting him.

But jeez, why did it have to be me? I feel so awful, words just can't comprehend. Mom keeps saying there was no way I coulda not hit him, that there was no way it was my fault. But still. I mean, he's gone. I know he was just a dog, but he was out dog. He's been around for so long that its gunna be so weird without him. I feel so bad for making my mom cry like that. Dad was upset to, even if he didn't show it like mom and I.

I feel like such a murderer. ><;;;









Mom put his bowl in the dishwasher tonight instead of putting food in it. ><








Jeez. I don't need any animals when I move out. I'm a bad pet owner...!!!!!!


~S

Date:	2005-12-27 05:12
Subject:	well now.
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	Aaahhh! Real Monsters!

long time no post o.O LET ME UPDATE YOU ON MY LIFE!!!!!!

1) This remodel thing? Yeah. IT BLOWS. Thankfully, I didn't go with a gaping hole in my wall to the bathroom for any amount of time. It was framed and dry-walled the same day. However, now my entire bathroom has been gutted (save the tub, which has to be removed by the plumber dood). What does this mean? It means I have to use my GRANDFATHERS bathroom. With the yucky everything. And the shower head i have to rig so that it sprays me instead of the wall or shower curtain. And the air conditioning vent that blows directly into the shower. And the annoyingly loud fan thingy. CHRIST. .... Oh yeah. And my shit STILL isn't all in my room cause it hasn't been PAINTED YET!! GOD!!!!! >.>

2) Dad came home and brought furniture with him. I was supposed to get a lot of it for when I move out. Mother decided that the stuff justw ans't going to hold up 'till Gregory and I move.. so she said that she'd buy us new stuff when we move out o_O; Thank you mom for your upsurd kindness. DON'T FORGET YOUR PROMISE SCARY LADY!!!! ._.

3) We delivered a buncha furniture to Jennioo's house. o.O;

4) I've helped put truck away at least twice now. I hurt so bad- my arms and back and most other limbs. Damn you Johnny for talking me into it!!! I ought to ask Cheryl for a raise since it seems I'm doing truck a lot more now.

5) Christmas was good. I got what I wanted most: A Wacom Tablet and a sewing Machine. :D Utter happiness!! Dad got me micron pens, new sketchpads, a shirt that says 'IDIOT'... OH!! And dad got Greg a shirt that says, 'Your Daughter will be safe with my for the next 7-8 hours, Sir.' XDXD!!!!! It was BAD ASS! Greg was like, "... OMFG XDXDXD!!!" har har.

6) ... My Dolly hasn't arrived yet, but I ordered her FaceUp FINALLY. I go to do with wire transfer tomorrow. YAY. Oh. And scary news. O.o I'm buying another one. ^^; I saw her for sale on the Dollfie forum I frequent and... had to have her. o.o;; She's a Volks MSD with a Myu head mold. :D She's kyuute and the lady is doign a custom faceup for meh. And she comes with a wig, dress and eyes. YES! Unfortunatly her wig is blonde... and I am going to have her blakc haired. *shrugs* But thats okay. Miette will love another blonde wig, and Evangeline (the new doll. :D) Will just wear it 'till I get her new one. ^^; I CAN'T WAIT I'M GUNNA DIE. >.> I want my dollys and I want them NOWS.

.... theres my life in six easy steps! Har har har. wow. I hurt all over. o.O; But the thought of my dolls makes me happy. :D I will have two girls, yay. ^^;; Tonya is getting a boy (A Tender Yen from DoD) And Marie is getting a boy too (A normal Yen)! Miette and 'Ev will be the only ladys. ^^;; Thats alright though. :D Miette is my creame and sugar dolly. She likes sweet cakes and sundresses. :D Har har. Evangeline however... is more fond of darker colors. Not nesisarily goth colors, but black and purple and such. She's going to have a dakr face-up, while i ordered Miette's done in pink. XDXD

Can anyone tell I am obsessed with these dolls? Gregory thinks they are nice but doesn't want me to have any boys of my own ^^; He's scared I'll leave him for a dolly. XDXD My poor baby. ^^;;

okay well. I am tired and just got the urge to eat some cup-a-ramen, Shrimp Style. :D five fuckin' thirty and hear I am going to make fuckin' ramen. I have to be up at like.. 1 or 2pm. o.O; Have to take Priscilla her bed and stuff. o.o yipee.

OKAY, I am off. Toodle-y-doo.

~S

Date:	2005-12-10 04:14
Subject:	getting better :D
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy
Music:	stoopid rugrats shizzola

Today wasn't bad, save for the lack of sleep. ^^;; I called Gregory and he went to PHCC with me. My book.. for three classes, even buying them used was 220.10. o.O shiiit, glad I didn't have to pay for it. XDXD;; I don't have that kinda money ANYWAYS.

And I owe the guy fixing my computer 20 dollars more than anticipated... but I think mommy is gunna pay that out of pity for me. x.x THANK YOU MOMMY!!!

I'm doing my x-mas shopping the second I get my paycheck o.O; cause I HATE owing people money, especially my mom. I know its not like she NEEDS it or anything, but yarg. I hate being late on payments, makes me wanna tear out all my hair!!

So.. I know what I am going to get for Marie. She is always easy to shop for. o.o;; Tonya I just dunno about though!! Maybe something interesting from Hot Topic.. something Corpse Bride or NBC. Hm... AND GREGORY!! OMFG!!! TRISH! JUBBY! MANDA!!! ... I'm buying him new earrings cause he lost two on his gauges the other day. Poor guy, he was pretty upset (read as: pissed off. He hasn't had to wear the straws in his ears in a loooong time :P). So. He gets that. WHAT ELSE?! O_O I just don't knooooow. I'm thinking of getting him a box set of .Hack/ Sign comic books. He seemed to liek them a lot at the store, and he won't read a THING so maybe I can get him to read something. :P heeee. Is there anythign else anyone can think of? x.x GOD he's so hard to shop for, he just randomly buys what he wants (GOD he reminds me of my dad in this aspect. >.> GRR.

Blarg. I'm tired. o.O Not sleeping well last night is begining to take its toll. To bad Tim (our loser contractor!!!! D.> Now I like, have to lock the bathroom door AND my bedroom door to.. uh... nothing. >.> <.< haha. :P BUT STILL! Aggrivation!!

Anything else. HMM... Oh! XD haha, Tonya is going to get a Dollfie also. :P I convinced her, and now she thinks they are awesome. She's not as obbsessed as I, but still. :P She'll get there. XDXD I think when my credit card gets paid off, we're going to order her dolly. :P haha. Since Gregory is never going to move out... (though he promised me that we would either a) BE moved out or at the very LEAST b) be activly seeking a place to live other than our homes by the time his twentith birthday came. Augh, can you believe it? My baby is gunna be twenty next year. *.* scary!!! I'm dating such a straping adult! XDXDXD HAHAH!!)

... its taken an incrediable amount of time to write out this journal entry. Tne stupid rugrats show keeps grabbing my attention. :P arg. Haha, anyhoo, I better get going. :P OH WELL! SLEEEEEY TIME!!!

~S

Date:	2005-12-09 04:54
Subject:	NCJDHSOAIUFY. Yep.
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable
Music:	nothing, HA!!!

YAY, this is kill Syndal Month. :D Just thought I'd let everyone know, so everyone knew to be mean to me and crush my insignificant feelings :D!!!

I'm just kidding, but this month .. slash the end of last month has been preeetty shitty all around o.<

Remember Stevo and Stephanie and their little problems? Meh, that hasn't gotten better or worse. I had a little melt down at work a few nights ago, so I think they are finally just going to leave or not come when I work. Which, will make me very happy. I could really care less if they think I am a shit talker, or a rumour spreader, or a lying seeving hoe. :D At least I am not a drugged up theif! :D I laugh in their collective faces, stupid, dirty, lying, theiving, fucking ass rapers. >.> YES. That is how I feel about them. NO MORE ON THAT SUBJECT! *chah-ching*

What else is wrong with Syndal you ask? Oh, my dear lovelys! :D Have you noticed it is Christmas? What does one need at Christmas time? Money! Thats right! Well. I had a great paycheck last week (466 dollars) and guess what I have left of it? 67 dollars. I bought no christmas gifts. I paid mom... AND I AM HAVING MY PEICE OF SHIT LAPTOP FIXED!!! My hard drive took a major dive, and decided it was going to DIE ON ME. So, I bought a new, 60GB hard drive for it... and then found out I don't have my operating disks anymore/ OH JOY. The guy said he'll get all that fixed up though. UNFORTUNATLY I lost everything *EVEREYTHING* that was on the mother fucking computer.
Does anyone know how much junk I had on that computer? Pictures of people I will never be able to recover. Pics of Jason, Little Ashley... Prom, homecomings. I have some spread throughout the net though, so thats at least somewhat good, Unfortunatly all my pics of Annie' old artwork is gone. I'll never have any of that again. A lot of artwork V did especially for me is gone. A lot of writings I didare now gone. I'm rather depressed when I think about it. >< AUGH.

I think mom is going to forward me the money to buiy everyone christmas though *le sigh* GOD I HATE LIFE RIGHT NOW!! ....

I know some other bad crapola has happened, but my stressed out mind just collapsed on me. :D!

Soem good things though... I recently purchased my very first Asian Ball Joint Doll (aka Dollfie) from Dream of Doll. :D She's a DOC (MSD (mini super dollfie) sized. About 41cm tall) TwingKey doll. She's super cute, but has yet to arrive. I had some problems with her, but the nice people at DoD have sorted out my stress. I order her on Novemeber 18th, and it takes 7-8 weeks before she is shipped out. :D I will be keeping track of it.. I still have a while to go, sadly, but I have already bought her a multitude of things. o.o;; She has a dress that I bought on ebay (its lovely, and on its way. :D The lady who made it said she'd make more clothing for me for my doll!) She also has a little sofa I bought for her at Ross for only 10 bucks! WOOT! I am happy. :D Next, I have 25 dollars worth of bows, lace and fabrics waiting for Marie to turn them into a dress... or two (or three?!)... And I am bidding on shoes for her as we speak. o.O 5 days till that auction ends. XD; I am looking for a new wig for her, I want a long curly one in a natural color. Jubby found me some GREAT selections, unfortunatly I was unable to buy said grand selections *huggles the Jub Jub anyways!* BUT ANYHOO. This doll, as pathetic as it may seem, is whats keeping me going right now (aside from my lovely boyfriend and not so loser friends marie and Tonya.. and a few others of course). I am enjoying simply immersing myself into the BJD world. XD;; I found a store relitivly near here that I am gunna go visit soon me thinks... sells MSD sized clothes/ shoes/ etc. AUGH! must go see. :P

Hm.. I dunno. *shrugs* I don't post often. XD; OH! I missed orientation for school *gurgles* lovely, no? Later today I have to go to the school and buy my books anyway, so I guess I will stab them then and be like, "hey. I'm stupid and missed orientation. HELP ME." We'll see. I hope Dee finishes her CPT test soon and gets scores she wants on it.. so she and I can have classes together. I really don't want to go to classes alone. >.> I have 3 classes...

Elementary Algebra. Three days a week.. in the mornings I believe. 11am-ish. So I can still close. YES.
College English. Two days a week. I forgot.. exactly when...
Beg. Psych. .. two days a week I think? I forget what time... glad I have the paper stashed somewhere.

CLASS STARTS JANUARY 9TH! OH GOD, I hate school! I'm going to DIE!!! >_________< I ought to go to bed but I am really not tired at all... I will be tomorrow though *sigh* I have to close... with Brandy. >.> Skippy.

well, I am off. Probably not to bed, but oh frickin' well. Wish me luck for tomorrow in aquirring books and a new orientation date... for my ebay bidding spree... and for whatever else God the almighty *whipcrack* diety has in store for meh. D:!!

GOOD BYE MY LOVLIES I SHALL MISS YOU! ... God. I hate my life today.

~S

Date:	2005-12-04 15:05
Subject:	o_O!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	blarg. natta.

OH. YEAH. XDXDXDXD

Gacked from Della :P

~S

Date:	2005-11-27 23:17
Subject:	fuckin' bitch
Security:	Public
Mood:	cranky
Music:	jfhsalhfsahf nothing

yeah. So I am a massive shit talker. And Stevo's girlfriend wants to kick my ass. And hasn't cause Lincoln told her not to. Oh, did I mention I'm afraid fo her?


Let my laugh fuckin' hysterically in the corner, okay? Then, maybe I'll talk some. Stupid fuckin' cunt. And everyone knows, I hate that word. But Stephanie, you are the Big C, you dumb fucking bitch.

*sigh* I don't understand sometimes. I'm going to quit talking at work. o.O I never said anything about Stevo that I hadn't alreayd heard, and i heard it from ROSS and TY. But no, I made it all up and spread rumours myself. WELL KIDS! Let me spread some more rumours that make my last rumours (that I heard from other people) sound even more true! (if any of these things are really rumours and not truth). Lincoln told me Stevo tried to sell her Valium. NIIICE. He's so not a drug addict, right?

Dammit. That was a few days ago though, so I am basically over all that. I just wished to share with everyone else about how much of a shit talker I am, so you guys better not share any important information with me cause I'll just talk about you. Cause I am a stupid bitch and I talk about people. Oh, I lie to. XD haha. WHAT THE FUCK EVER.

Aside from that....

GREG IS COMING HOME SOOOOOON!!! OMFG! I CAN'T WAIT!!!

I have missed him so much I could just die >< He said if all goes well he'll be home by 5am (tonight, or depending on how you look at it, tomorrow) He said he was going to come straight over. AHH I am just going to die before he gets here I know it guys!!!!!

;___________________;

okay, I just lost interest in this post. *squeezes pink flamingo named Gregory* ;.; I can't wait until he's home.

~S

Date:	2005-11-24 04:51
Subject:	did it again!
Security:	Public
Mood:	indifferent
Music:	Dresden Dolls

ha, I did it again o.o i guess I will take this time ot post a real journal right quick.

This week has sucked. Gregory is in New York, so I am all by myself. He's been good abotu caling me every night. He called me today at like 5 from some parade, but never called me back so I'm a little upset with him. But I really can't be. The poor guy never gets a vacation, so I can't be mad at him for having fun and forgetting to call back. He may have been to tired or whatever. ^^; I just am sad that I didn't get to hear about his day *sigh*

AUGH. I've been irritable and bitchy all week. Dad came home today o.O yay? He brought home a slot machine. Don't ask.

Next month he's bringing hom three bedroom sets, a living room set and a dining room set. o.< yay. Priscilla is gunna get one bedroom set, and I get one o.o; I'm paying dad like, half of the Uhaul, cause the living room and dining sets are mine o.o;

rawr, I freaked out on Ross the other day cause he was drunk and talking smack. I cried at him. XDXDXD but its okay, we're good now. I don't think I'm gunna Tell Gregory about my shitty night last night (and boy was it shitty). Oh well. Oh, and I;ve decided that Stevo's Stephanie pisses me off, if what I've heard is true.

I've heard that Stevo won't speak to me cause Stephanie doesn't want him to becuase she thinks that I have a crush on him adn want to steal him from her or something basically like that.

DEAR BITCH.

I have this thing on my finger, it's called a ring. It ties me to ONE MAN that happens to not be YOUR MAN. I care about Steve, I will give you that. I WILL. He's like a brother to me. I will admit, as its posted all over my journal in back entries anyway, that there was a time in which I did wish you'd just die so I could date Steve myself. However, as much as I cared for him, I wanted him because Gregory (Guy I am currently dating and have been dating for nearly a YEAR now) was playing hard to get. Steve and I became very close, and I see him much like family (though less so everyday that he plays into you and your pathetic demands, or in case he is doing it himself, his pathetic life).
But you know what? Keep him. Because as it's going, you will never have ANYTHING. Those shoes on your feet? You stole them you stupid bitch. The watch on your wrist, earrings in your ears? You stole all that shit to! You AND him. Did he even buy you YOUR ring? Or did you guys steal that to? And did he demand it or did he buy it himself and give it to you? Go ahead. Think your bad ass.
And by the way, I remember when he'd call me every night, (more so most days) and tell me that he didn't know what your problem was, why he didn't seem to love him like you did. He'd tell me how lucky some man would be one day when I dated someone. He shared every instance of his life with me, and I listened. Do you listen? I doubt it, but hey. Thats his problem now, ain't it? Ha. One thing makes me happy. You have him, I'll give you that (not that I care, because I DO love my boyfriend with all my heart and I'd never EVER trade him for Steve) but what do you fucking have? At best, a dead beat who's a theif, can't hold a job, doesn't have a car, and doesn't even have a permanent residence to invite you to. At worst, a convicted criminal (of which I know he's been to jail) a drug user and dealer, still no car, no money and no place to call home. And you know what? You two are going to run out of friends that give a fuck. Why? Cause nobody wants your bullshit. There, I'm done. Fuck you guys.

Love,
Syndal.

Yeh. O.o; Not that she has internet connection or anything, I just wanted to vent my anger. Of which, I am very VERY angery. :D hehe.

well, this was longer than intended, so with that I leave yeh. I have to be at work by 10, so that is craptacular. *shrug* I only work till like 2:30pm, so it'll be alright. I'll just come home, eat, then die in bed. Can't be any better than that!

One more minor detail. I registered for classes today. Elementary Algebra, English Comp. I, and Beg. Psych. Algebra... Mon, Wed, Fri. at... like 11-12:10. Then, I have English and Psych on Tuesday and Thurs. One in the monring one in the evening o.O;;

I'ma gunna die. o.O I so still have to work full time. OH WELL. I leave now. cause I ought to. Not that I am gunna sleep or nuthin. Though I should as my eyes burn. o.< maybe. I have to pee. Maybe I'll take care of that first. :D

~S

Date:	2005-11-24 04:50
Subject:	it is here!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Dresden Dolls

Yis, I am bad and it's taken this long to update. I LOVE YOU GUYS STILL! O_O

Title: Anger Managment
Author: S.L. Pagniello
Chapter: 6/ 8
Ship: Dr/ Hr
Rating: R
Synopsis: He hates her, everything about her. Her hair, her eyes, her fucking muggle clothes! Now, during their 7th year at Hogwarts, he must not only deal with her but learn to live with her. However, that may take the destruction of everything in his room... (HBP totally blows this into AU, but oh well!)

follow the link... http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2623510/6/

Love!

~S

(x-posted at other Dramione LJs)

Date:	2005-11-16 02:23
Subject:	Oopsie!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Futurama?!

haha, I accidently posted my last entry... on this journal instead of in one of my regular communities. :P Oopsie. It'll just... chill there cause I am far far to lazy to... you know. delete it. XDXD

~S!

Date:	2005-11-16 02:22
Subject:	pictures...?!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Futurama... D:

haha, I come bearing pictures today rather than the next installment of my fic. Of which I swear I am... working on. :P hehe. Anyhoo, both of these pics are by me, and don't giggle. :P The design I chose for Hermione... I only toyed with for days. Draco's design... I rather despise, and have tried to rework it several times. (ps, I would love links to any Draco fanart that you guys deem very beautiful.)

SO, onward! And remember, don't laugh, I am a sensitive Leo (mewl!)

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weee, luff.

~S

Date:	2005-11-13 21:44
Subject:	take it or DEATH
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	... Mario Party stuff o.O

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

o_o;;; yes. yeeeeees, follow the link and tell me about... ME!!!

~S

Date:	2005-11-09 05:56
Subject:	shitty music
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	aauugh Shania Twain! MY EARS BLEED.

I told myself i'd go to bed at a decent hour. Its 6am, that is so indecent!! Plus I am actually doing stuff tomorrow.. on top of going to work. AUGH. I shoot myself in the foot. >.> oh well. I'll just be tired and cranky tomorrow, haha. But since I go in at 7 I get to dive right into my closing preps. GOOD.

I guess I was wrong, also. I went into McD's tonight to see if I was crazy and see if everyone hated me. I guess I've just been a little overstressed lately. Or maybe its cause both times I came in last I someone with me (mainly Amanda). o.o;; Hm, I dunno. But tonight everyone was their usual cheery selves. ^^;; haha, oh well.

Hm... Greg goes to New York soon. I dunno what I am gunna do... I think I'm just gunna freak out o_o; As in like, lay on my floor and just DIE! This, like most things I say when involving my Gregory, will sound pathetic, but the longest we've been apart in... a long long time (perhaps more than a year, because even before we were dating i saw him daily with Jason... hm...) is three days. THREE. And actually I think it was technically only a whole day of not seeing eachother... no, perhaps to, cause the third night I was back home (early I may add) so I could see him ^^; And he called me three times a day, which for him is nuts cause he's not a big phone talker, and yapped to me for like, 40 minutes over nothing. And jesus did I miss him horribly!! o____o;; augh, two weeks... TWO!!! I cry.

hm, Trisha has volunteered to be smut tutor. XDXDXD!!! I am giddy with excitment, and eager to try whatever she is to teach meh! My Draco/ Hermione fic needs some serious smutage. CACKLE!! Ought I put a link up to it here? o_O I have the fic on a few Hermione/ Draco fanlistings and in two archives. ^^;; I may put it on adult fan fiction... its alreayd considered adult due to language and violence. ^^;; People have liked my rather canon Draco o.o;

WELL. I dunno. I am trying to finish chap. 5 of my fic so YARG. I need to sleep so I am not TOTAL BIOTCH DOOM tomorrow. o.< but I am not tired. At all. maybe I'll just stay up all night and all day... so when I get home from work... I might actually I dunno... GO TO FRICKIN' BED!!!!!!

... yep. With that, I leave you. YIS. YIS I DO.

~S

Date:	2005-11-08 04:27
Subject:	hahahaha
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy
Music:	Living Dead Girl - Rob Zombie

I need a friend thats a crazy and retarded as I am. And can RP. Harry Potter-esqe stuff. With Draco Malfoy in it. :D I've been scaring Greg with my Draco fan girlishness.

AUGH, i need some good rp and some good fics. *sigh* I have sunk into writing myself... and am still hardly able to write smut o.< I AM TRYING DAMMIT!!!!! I need to have T and Trish tutor me in smut-writing. *cackles*

I want to see Harry Potter the day it comes out. o.O Oh, and I wanna wear my Slytherin school uniform. I need... a skirt... and robes. I need to make robes, gawd. I had that pattern SOMEWHERE, but it has hence forth vacated. I need to refind it. GOD I AM A FANGIRL!!!!

... I think some of my fellow employees are mad at me, and its been kinda bothering me. o.O Usually when I walk into McD's on my days off, everyone says hey or whatever. The last two times I've popped by... they just haven't been as great as usual. *grumbles* It Can't be cause I was so lazy last shift! I mean, everyone has their crap days, and I DID get what needed to be done, done before I left!! I dunno. Maybe Priscilla is mad at me cause she's decided that she likes little heather and doesn't like the comments I had about her. I like lil' heather just fine, I could just never ever see moving in with her. At 16 I don't think you should move out of your parents house unless they are drug addicts, abusive, etc. I just think Heather didn't want to live under the rules of a household... though I've heard her mother smokes weed so... I just dunno. *sigh* I hate everyone. They make me crazy... I wish I didn't care if anyone liked me or not!!! I'm just gunna rip out my fucking hair!!!!!!

Anyways. Went to Amanda's the other night, her mom is out for a while and she had a mini party thing complete with alchol. I had like, a sip of coke and urm and that was it. o.< (it was yuck btw). And I've also decided, not that I hadn't already, but with undecidedly more fevor than before, that Gregory is the man I'd liek to spend my life with. HA! Corny and sad I know, but he impressed me greatly at the party thing...

You see my friends, My lovely boyfriend wasn't always such a lovely person. He didn't grow up in the best of families (though his mom tries hard, and I love her lots!) and has had some big problems. He used to be a drug addict and a bit of a mini alcholic. When he began dating me, he cut back his smoking and stopped drinking (though it was waning before us dating, but he still smoked). I told him when we began dating that I couldn't tell him what to do, and it was his choice what he did. I said that if he wanted to smoke pot or drink that he could, but I didn't want to hang out with him or be around him while he was uninhibited. I will be frank guys, I don't like it when peopel smoke or drink. I think that its a useless habit. I have friends that have smoked/ do smoke and I still love them, despite the fact that we have differing opinions on drugs, etc. However, I have a choice when it comes to my boyfriend and I didn't want a drug addict as my lover.
So, He stopped. He smoked a few times after I gave him my ultimadum, but he always came to me and told me. Every time he asked if I was angry with him, and I always told him I wasn't mad, just disappointed. So now, he doesn't smoke anymore.
SO< bringing about the point of this. When we were at Amanda's, I'd takena drink, and thus Amanda had poured Greg a drink. He took a few sips before everyone settled ont he couch. floor whatever. Then, he did what impressed me. It won't seem like much to you guys, but it meant the world to me.
He asked me if I minded if he drank. The fact that he asked me just blew me away. The person he used to be, and everything he used to do was just... I dunno. Crazy. The fact that he valued what I thought enough to ask me if he could do something was just phonominal. He knew it wasn't my cup of tea, and asked, probably fully expecting a downright no. Btw, I am not compltely ridgid with a stick shoved up my ass. I am a tenager, and knew he would be doing no driving and would be spending the night, so I allowed him his luxury. He didn't drink much, and after he was finished he sat and hugged me tight and told me he wasn't really drifferent after he drank. Hehe, boys. I know that he'll never betray the trust I have for him ^^;; This sounds pathetic, even to me but bleh, I had to get it out. XD; The fact that he doesn't do things because I don't think they are right impresses me. The fact that he cares so much about how I view him makes me feel special because he doesn't give a shit how many people see him.

GAH, okay, enough of my boyfriend fan girlishness!! I am pathetic, and my boyfriend is one of the few joys in my life ^^;; I need a job that isn't so horrible... though I think I won't quit mcdonald's again until I am definatly ready. No more of this 'on a whim' shit. Oh well. Fuck everybody. o_O;

I'm off. Mom may be waking up here soon, so I'll have someone to yap at instead of plugging up the computer with my ignorant ramblings of teenage love and fandom. XDXD hahaha!!

yis. with that I bid you adeu. Or however its spelled.

~S

Date:	2005-10-27 06:06
Subject:	HAHAHAHA!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	artistic
Music:	some crap TV show!!

i was looking through my folder... of crazy pictures... and I found some of these. They make me laugh, hysterically... so enjoy them!?!?

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o_o beware the scary pictures and long rambling!! And about my life? Err... I have overtime!! YAAY! other than that, nothin'. Halloween Horror Nights saturday! With Greg, Tonya, Virginia and Alex! Wee haaa!! Wish more people could go! *cries dejectedly!!!*

... Halloween par-tay on halloween... not to mention group dress up and scary trick or treating!! I am Alice in Wonderland. :D I will take.. uh... picture... things. MAYBE.

I go now. Greg will be here in... less than two hours and T will call in an hour, hour and a half. And I haven't gotten ANY sleep. ^^;; Was at work till three... SCRUBBING and chiseling! YES I said CHISELING shit. >.>; oh well. More hours for me! I may get more overtime than expected *grins*

um... yey? I scurry off now. o.o; cause I ought to!!

~S

((Ps.. I only edited this entry THREE TIMES to get the pics to be correct! AUGH DAMN MY SHITTY HTML AND COPY PASTE SKILLZ!!!))

Date:	2005-10-18 02:26
Subject:	buggy.
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	aqua teen hunger force crap

I dunno, haven't posted in a while. I feel crappy today and have all day. its hot. ;.;

BUT i started writing fanfiction guys!! Harry Potter fanfiction. SO THERE. >.>

It should be like... next week. Cause this week is gunna suck and be long and hellish. I work aaaallll week. GOD DEMMIT.

I found my phone clip, for those of you who knew I had lost it like 3 weeks ago o.o;

Mom came home from her four day vacation with dad in... Virginia? o.O;

I got my first ever credit card! And Spent money on it! now... the bill is gunna come *cries* DAMMIT. I ought to buy something cool with it. I think I shall >.>

what should I buy? I need some new pants. I think I lost weight cause all my pants are falling off my ass. GRR.

Greg and I are gunna try and start doing things during the day, before work o.O since we work so late :P;; I dunno how we're gunna pull it off, but.. whatever! I'll try waking up I guess, for mah baby. :P

aahh... 2:30am. Yes... I am SO going to bed early, haha. Or not?!

poke the cut to see... STUFF.

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hahaha, its LONG beware. :D HEY!! At least I cut it this time!! (your welcome, Trisha. :D haah)

Date:	2005-10-10 17:02
Subject:	welll....
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	bleh none

I was right, that day was pretty shitty. I ended up getting NO SLEEP. (I lie, perhaps 45 minutes?) Here's what happened, give or take cause I may have forgotten or blocked something from my memory. :P

1) Greg had come over after work at about 2am. I was a little sleepy but not to bad. So, I let him stay. ^^;; Well, like 5am rolled around and I was like O_O;;; So, I think he went home ta like 5 or 6... so I laid down, and fell asleep for like 45 min.

2) Went to go get Dee... Got to the college and immediatly spoke to someone. He told me the classes I was gunna have to take, etc. Dee had to take her CPT, so I left to go to McDonald's.

3) Get to McDonald's (By now, I am dying) Turns out Doug was there, Cheryl wasn't. So I asked Jennioo if I can talk to him. He says that I should come back in 30 min.


4) Go home for the 30 min. Call Arby's and tell 'em I'll be in at 3pm.

5) Go back to McD's. Wait for like an HOUR and 20 minutes for that fucker doug. FINALLY he speaks to me. HJe writes down everything I say, tells me what I did (walking out) was immature, and that I should have had the responsibility to work out my two weeks, and its worse that I put it in then walked out. -.-; so, I figure that I have no chance of getting my job back.

6) Bawl all the way to PHCC to get Dee cause of lack of sleep and utter stress. Get Dee and take her home.

7) Get home, sleep for another hour or so.

8) Go to work at Arby's. whine bitch and moan. :D

9) Come home.. and find out that Cheryl had already called and said that not only was I back on the schedules already, I had my old number back, and she'd wanted me to come in that day, but would settled for the next day!

10) ... I freaked out, called, and ended up working for three hours that night. ^^; I am a sad pathetic person. I stopped at Arby's on the way home to put in a two weeks.

11) Came home. Slept.

12) Went to Arby;s to talk to Donna. She said I could work out my scehdule and be done. THANK YOU DONNA.

13) Ended up working 11am to 5:30pm at McDonald's and 6pm to 1:30am at Arby's.

And my Arby;s day... MY HOLY FUCK. It was bad o.O;; But oh well. It was my last day, thank christ. I will tell more about that later, I must go to grocery!

byeeee!

~S